I am not a Theology Scholar, yes I study the Bible so I must say I have always had this curiosity about how some of the Apostles actually passed away. Well, I saw this article with a heading “How The Apostles Died” by Unblamable Matthew posted on Facebook, I read through it and I was in awe; it was exactly what I have been hoping to get ( I don’t know how true the info is but I am glad I saw this article). Reading through it made me realize how selfless these people were, they were totally sold out to the mission.
"Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete." John 16:24 The universe has been created in such a way that when we ask, if we ask in confidence in the name of Jesus, it will be given to us. Amazing, right? God knows what we need even before we ask for it.Oftentimes though we are confused and we don’t know what we really want.
Life is just what is it; bad things happen, good things also happen, it is part and parcel of life. Even great men and women of God went through such phases as documented in the Bible. If this is how life is, so how we handle such phases in life? I don’t think there is a generic answer to this question as we face different challenges which of course require different solutions. However, I believe there can be one Source that all those different solutions can originate from, no matter how different our challenges may be.
I thank God for my emptiness. It is like a gift wrapped haphazardly by the Giver in an unappealing wrapper. You wouldn’t know how beautiful it is until you’ve opened it. If it wasn’t for that hungry pang for something better, I wouldn’t have strived harder. If it wasn’t for that emptiness, I wouldn’t have been desperate to search for an answer. I would have been complacent. I might have been living contentedly with “just enough”.Your emptiness can do stupendous things in your life.
The last 2 years of my life have been a hurricane. I moved away from home because of family complications. I had to move to a totally different environment. It was with family, but I always felt like an outsider. The hardest part of the struggle I was going through was that the year it all went south, I had just started to pray and fast.I participated in my very first Daniel Fast and shortly after the fasting was over, all hell literally broke loose.
I have this plant in my yard called a Bougainvillea. When I first got it, I put it in a pot and set it in the flower bed so that it could be watered with the rest of the plants when the sprinklers came on. One day I looked out, and it was blooming beautifully! The Bougainvillea is a bushy type of plant with gorgeous pink flowers all over it. I decided to move the pot to our back porch so that I could see it better and enjoy the blooms. I walked outside and gave the pot a good tug, but it didn't budge.
I had a roller coaster ride that almost drove me out of my wits two years ago. I transformed into the monster that I did not know existed. I felt anger so intense it almost consumed me. At one point, I really think it did. I made wrong decisions, spoke words of contempt, cursed a couple of people (and myself), stayed up late thinking, plotting, and lashing myself with an invisible whip until I was left exhausted physically, emotionally and spiritually. It was a nightmare. I was murdered emotionally